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Monday, May 6, 2013

Hidden in Plain sight

Wow, Holy moly, unbelievable. It really IS true that the Best place to hide something is right in front of people. Even people who claim to be awake don't see what's right there in front of them. People get so wrapped up in Ending the Fed, Stop stop and Frisk and Ending Corp Personhood that they miss what's happening in the here and now. That is why I'm always trying to reiterate that in order to change the system, the best way to do it is to look and work on oneself. People end up perpetuating the very system they say they want to change and resist by unconsciously behaving in the same old way. People don't realize that we are ALL the system. We are ALL working FOR the PTB. We have all been "wired" to one degree or another to work for and carry out the very system that is at our expense and be our own worst enemy. If people took the time to really look, to take a really close look, it really Is the people who are the ones who are the 1%. It is the people who keep one another in line, it is the people who perpetuate the double standard, it is the people who continue to use up resources both environmentally and emotionally rather than replenishing and restoring. People continue to do to each other exactly what the ptb want; treat one another disrespectfully, talk down to one another instead of speaking in ways that elevate.

 I once read in a John Bradshaw book in the mid 90's, the scenario of someone who is trying to lose weight and falls off their plan and starts to berate themselves, that berating oneself is the way to stay Fat, Not the way to lose weight. How easy it is to slip back into the old patterns of beating ourselves up when beating ourselves up is the way to stay fat rather than the way to lose weight. Of course, it takes practice and we can't beat ourselves up for beating ourselves up either. That would only create even more debt in us. That's why anyone who claims to be about change, who claims to be AWAKE, the only real way to promote change is to live in the Present moment. There is NO other way, it's basic Math. So, just like someone who wants to lose weight and get fit needs to pay attention to what they eat, how much they eat and how often they eat but, also how often to go to the gym, how much weight to add on, have I gained strength, muscle and lost inches? All of these calculations together create orientation. They give a person an idea of where they are and, also give a sense of direction to know which way to start moving. When we pay attention to anything in the here and now it can give us orientation and help guide us.

 Years ago people used the stars and the planets to help give them direction and coordination. Today, living in our fake habitat, our man-made, artificial environment that has been controlled by the invisible shadow Gov/Corp., how do we get oriented? How do we know in which direction we are moving in, if we're even moving at all? The problem is that people are Completely Disoriented! LOST. The ptb have manipulated and rigged the system to their benefit so much and the people who thought they were moving in some kind of direction by working for $$ but at the same time losing real value by surrendering their morals and dignity, are now beginning to realize that they have, in Fact, been moving in the Wrong direction!!

 What I don't get is,, we use and interact with Nature and physics in learning to hit a baseball with a bat, we interact and receive feedback from PHYSICS in learning to develop our Golf swing, our skiing abilities, our guitar playing, even when we learned to walk and crawl. WHY then don't we interact with Physics in order to develop ourselves at work, rather than going against physics, going AGAINST our inner equilibrium and against our intuition?! Instead of trusting and listening to our gut when we have to lower ourselves for a paycheck or look the other way to get a promotion. When we have to rip off clients to make a profit for the company, why don't we align ourselves with physics and our instincts like we do when we do other activities?? Even when the evidence that the environment and physics is giving us is CLEAR that we're causing incredible destruction, we Continue! Rather than change course!!

 We need to go on a DIET for Everything! most people don't think about going on a communication diet. Meaning, being more choosey in the words we use when speaking to others and in when we're spoken to also. Everything is either Healthy or not healthy, building or tearing down, moving us in the direction we want to go or not. Creating healthy, respectful relationships or NOT, cooperating or competition.

Friday, May 3, 2013

Healthy Relationship Balance

Just like someone would create a system in order to collect Rain water for their use rather than simply allowing it to run into a sewer, there is another "current" or energy to collect. Relationships. "If" people were mindful enough, they could build a Sanctuary with each other. A Place to be supported, to recharge. People to whom we can turn to rest, to take Refuge. But that needs to be cultivated. It needs to be "constructed" by people who have the smarts to see. When people are present enough they can utilize the energy of relationships, contain the energy of emotions like rain water or wind energy.
 I've been exposed to dysfunctional relationships for too long in my life to the point where, for the sake of health, I cannot and will not tolerate anymore. I hear too many people talking about Vitamins, eating right, Organic veggies, Tangy Tangerine, colloidal silver but I don't hear as often people talking about healthy relationships. Stefan Molyneaux speaks about Non Aggressive families, and parenting. Raising my glass to him. A real man speaking out on nonaggression. People who are actually respectful towards each other, mindful of the way they treat and speak to each other, careful about the way they speak to and treat their own child so as to not use the child as their garbage can. If we are not mindful enough to realize what's right in front of us, to realize that every moment we are creating our future (even if by default). When we are PRESENT all of life becomes like clay on a pottery wheel. We have the potential to make whatever we desire. When we are not aware of this we do not understand the power we have but, something will be created regardless. Whether with mindful intention or unconscious default, we're creating a future either way.
 I had had enough at such a young age of dysfunctional, abusive, unhealthy relating that I started trying to teach myself and learn better, more healthier ways of interacting. I wanted NOTHING more in my life than to have supportive, caring, respectful, loving people around me. People who have the abundance to Give, who can "afford" to share their health and decency rather than what I was surrounded by growing up; poverty minded people, emotionally poor people, people with No self worth or healthy sense of themselves to treat me like I was wanted, like I was a gift, like I had value. If they couldn't see me for the value that I was, that's on THEM. That's their blindness. I started reading any book I could get my hand on healthy relating, healthy/dysfunctional families. John Bradshaw and his PBS special on the Family was my favorite. It was such a relief to finally hear and see someone in plain language, using a mobile show how the members of a family interact and effect one another. How the Parents, as the "head" of the family, based on their level of health, effect and influence the roles of the children.
 I think of someone's body and their physical "posture"; are their shoulders rounded and hunched over? Are their hips level and balanced or do they have a sway back? Do they have scoliosis? So, where ever parents are in their emotional "posture", the children will reflect them. The entire Family IS a System of parts just like the body interacting either in a balanced healthy way, or an imbalanced, unhealthy way. The parents, having either tight constricted emotions or slacking, complacent emotions will create the opposite condition in the child. The child will, quite Literally, be a mirror reflection. So the same way rounded, weak shoulders and upper back creates a tight, collapsed chest, emotionally absent or permissive parents will create a child who is fearful or clingy. The relationship between the parents is also a huge influence. Whether or not the parents have a satisfying, healthy partnership and getting their own needs met or whether the parent(s) are unfulfilled then using a child as a Surrogate spouse.
 No matter how we look at it,, the direction of flow of energy should Always be from parent to child, not the other way around. Children are not supposed to be feeling responsible for the parent. The parent needs to be in a constant mode of giving and being there FOR the child. If at any time the child feels this turning around and the unhealthy needs of the parent puts the child's needs in the back seat, it starts the pattern of a very dysfunctional pattern. It becomes the reason why the Country/world is in the state of Debt that it's in and we've allowed the Powers that Be keep us in a perpetual state of child-like. Parents treat their children the way the System Wants! Parents, unconsciously, are passing down the Crony Capitalist system, by robbing and depleting Precious resources in their own children the way Corporations rob and steal Oil, gold, diamonds, trees, animals for profit! It's all about Resources and keeping the "poor" or vulnerable in constant Debt. Starving children/people emotionally is the same thing as living on minimum wage. Suffocation, struggling

Nature is in Charge,, not us



 I've really been feeling pretty cynical lately as to what will happen to our Society in the future. I can't help but get "visions" of such unbelievable clarity. I believe that the closer we look at the Ugly truth, the better chance we have of saving ourselves. Others' attitudes are not the same. Even those who consider themselves to be Awake. They think Not seeing the real issues and just being "positive" will save us.
 
I guess it all depends on how much you are capable of "mentally bench pressing". Some people are capable of seeing and taking on more harsh truth than others. The way I look at it,, Just because some one can Extreme Ski doesn't make them crazy. If they an do it, they can do it! Why people have this attitude that, just because we're not on the ski slopes, physics ceases to exist! Physics is Still in effect. Some people are capable of things that we're not. These are not difficult things to grasp! Rather than listening to each other and Giving another ground to stand on,, we rob them of their ground. People have the right to make mistakes and Be where they are in their stage of learning. All learning should be Encouraged, Not forced.

 I really feel that due to the way I grew up I learned to be fit and live more on the edge, more on the alert than others I know. I got used to living a very challenging life early on and had this sense of Emergency from a very young age. I couldn't help but do what my instincts directed me to do, as much as my surroundings would allow. I just kept myself extremely fit physically, emotionally/Spiritually. I worked at it all the time. Even to this day, I have the need to always be "working out", to always be challenging myself all the time. I pushed myself very hard at weight training, jogging, Yoga, reading books on conscious communicating, Co Dependency, the Dysfunctional Family. If my body feels that this is the way to go, it can't possibly be wrong. I felt that learning to build and have healthy, FIT relationships was going to be very essential down the road. Just like a fit body, fit relating was extremely important. Due to the fact that others did not feel the same sense of urgency that I felt, I was pretty much on my own.

 Growing up on my own since 6 years old I was starving for knowledge, for mentoring, for someone to give me some leverage. For someone to support me emotionally for Free! The way my parents couldn't. If you learn early on that you owe, you Owe your parents for bringing you into the world, you owe them for giving you a house and food and clothes, that is how people get trained to accept this Debt system in which we now live and we have created. We have ONLY ourselves to blame for what we now have. I tried to wake people up all my life to what was going on and NO one listened!

The Family System is a subsystem of the Country and the way we teach and treat our children sets them up for the way their own Country will treat them. What kind of a world do you think you're going to create when people raise their kids with a "children have no value" attitude. That is exactly the kind of attitude I came from. You're literally treated like a dog. I grew up not feeling loved or respected at all and felt depressed by the time I was 6. I've been trying to get this out for such a long time but, too many people have the attitude of, "oh, it's in the past, Get over it", "Stop dwelling on it", but yet, they offer No help. People expect things to just get done without them doing anything to help it along. People are TRULY disconnected and have SEVERE lack of a healthy response. People are simply Not Sharp! As far as Nature/Health is concerned, people's responses to No-Brainer, in the Moment events is completely Dull, to say the least. The American people have a Severe case of being Numb and brain dead. We really need to have a legal medical term for the amount of people with this wide spread apathy.

Rather than having sharp, immediate, instinctual response to occurrences as measured by Health/Nature, people's responses are bought by $$. Fake paper $$ has literally made people Mentally ill.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Where I learned about Debt
 I grew up in a house/family where my parents got married because my mother got pregnant even though they didn't really Love each other and build up a respectable partnership, DEBT. This is backwards. It was Debt from then on. People just passing on their mistakes and Not even admitting or taking responsibility for it. My Parents had my brother and I 16 months apart. My parents did not get along very well. I remember a lot of fighting when I was a kid and the cops would come to my house and take my father away. Things like this are Not even acknowledged as being Traumatizing to a child. The Fact that these events have consequences and can have lasting effects are not even spoken about.  My parents divorced when I was 5 years old. We also lived with my Uncle and Father on my mothers side. When I was in the 2nd to thru the 5th grade I use to pull my eyelashes out from stress. Self Mutilation is the Very evidence of Debt, Trying to "Get" more from oneself, from the Body than is meant to.

 It didn't take long to find out that the problems didn't end and we didn't live happily ever after just because my parents were divorced. It was clear that my mother resented her position as a parent. It was Clear to me that she did not want the role and resented that I was around. She was incapable of Loving, of being giving emotionally. I always felt "starved" emotionally, that I was here to fill her needs, Not the other way around. Is it Any wonder that our entire society is Backwards? With Wall St robbing people instead of assisting them financially. Health Care making people sick and being Profit driven instead of healing people.
 I learned early, like many children like me, that the world was backwards. Families are a source of stress and pain rather than joy and satiation. The family is/was no different than what people are talking about these days. DEBT! I don't get what the Big surprise is! I've been saying it and trying to get through to people my ENTIRE life! The evidence is Right in front of our Face! If people take on more than they can handle, live beyond their means and have kids they don't really want, that is Immorally passing the Debt on to Future generations. I did not inherit much in terms of "values". Everything was "inside out", backwards, and the ones doing it defended it, like the banks and Gov do today. The PTB (Powers that be) never do anything wrong.
 I was brought here to fill their needs, not the other way around. I was brought here to bail them out, Not the other way around. When John Perkins in Zeitgeist Addendum spoke about how those with the $$ come in to corrupt the leaders of the Gov to make a few Rich people Richer and leave the people holding the Debt, he called it "a double, triple whamie!" This is NO different than what goes on in some "families".
 If there's ANY Position in the world that has the Ultimate power to Abuse,, it's Parents! I've heard it all any time I tried to talk about it, "Get over it", "you're parents couldn't give to you because no one taught them", as if that's Justification for passing Non value onto you're own kids!? The whole point of Reproduction is to Reproduce VALUE,, Not Fake Fiat Currency like the Fed does!! This is what happens when there is a Disconnect from $$ and Real Value. People are conditioned to follow $$ in one direction,, while REAL value is going in the other!

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

DeCapitated

Most people have been,, Decapitated to some extent. Meaning, taught to live in the head only. We live in a society that values the Intellect, the mind over the body, the Masculine OVER the feminine, Profit OVER peace, people AND the environment. What does that mean to us and our Health? It means we do the same thing to ourselves. We're cut off from what we really feel because our True feelings get in the way of Profit. We're taught early on to use our heads,, that is Dominant, to manipulate and control what we really feel emotionally and Spiritually. Emotions are deemed, "Feminine", Irrational, unreliable.
 The Military is a good example of being trained and conditioned to use the Head to override what the body feels. This is how they're able to disconnect and Kill innocent people and not feel anything. When people are trained to view their own bodies as the enemy, their own Normal, healthy responses as wrong or abnormal, they learn to live in a disconnected state from themselves,, which allows them to live disconnected from the rest of Society. People who work in jobs where blindly following orders is expected, even if it means going against what you know to be immoral in your gut, do so at a great expense to their Mental health. This idea that we have to give up ourselves Entirely for a job or $$ is the opposite way that Nature works.
 It should be obvious in a work place when earning a paycheck is starting to cost us way too much of ourselves. How can we not feel that surrendering who we are for $$ can only lead us into the point of no return? How can giving up one's self respect and dignity over time Possibly get us anywhere when we've given up the VERY thing life is about? Our Self Worth and value is what we should be accumulating more of, not giving up! Any job that asks us to surrender ourselves to the point where we feel diminished, our gut is trying to tell us something is wrong! That's why we need to LISTEN, pay attention to what we feel, NOT give it away! The system wants the opposite of what will benefit us. We're being Raped gradually over time. If a sketchy person in a dark alley jumped on us and try to rob our wallets and rape us,, would we give in?? If they had a weapon of some kind it can definitely pose a challenging situation to get out of. Is it worth trying to get away or do we not even try? It all depends on our level of confidence in our ability to take care of ourselves.
 We need to learn a form of Mental Martial Arts in this world in order to Navigate the mental onslaught that comes at us. When we are overwhelmed and our own selves are used against us, our own ignorance and desire to be a part of something great,, we end up losing our own greatness. If we're to regard others as Great without them regarding US as Great also,, we're getting Ripped off! It's all a matter of leverage and physics. We end up projecting our own Greatness onto the "military" or the Police dept, but then the "love" doesn't come back to us. it becomes a One Way street where, we're giving up more and more and only getting in return is paper. Where's the Love? People are looking for Love and Passion and that is the very thing the system uses to seduce us and rob our lives.
 I recently watched the Central Park 5 documentary and towards the end of it Kory Wise made the point I try to get people to understand. He said, "They used us against us, our youth against us". Because the world has turned inside out, the scam of the $$ system has created a HERNIA in the system. $$ is driving us rather than the other way around. The people behind it are NOT going to admit it. They are not going to take responsibility. If it can happen to 5 boys in NYC who were interrogated without a lawyer present and did not know their rights, who were pressured to such a point that they confessed to something they did not do! That is a form of torture. They were 14, 15 and 16 year olds being bullied and intimidated into telling the NYPD what they wanted to hear. These people are not interested in finding out the truth,, they're interested in getting the case solved one way or another. Everything has become about the Ends, not the Means. Skip the Process and get right to the Guilty verdict.
 That's how we do things, without the Natural Process. We've learned to Skip Nature's process in Every area of life; Farming and agriculture, relationships, people don't take the time to develop closeness. Due to $$ constraints people move in together because it's cheaper, or they just don't have the emotional maturity to go slow, so they skip to the sex part to get to the goodies, then the relationship fails because it was rushed. We rush our kids to grow up fast, we don't allow them to develop at the pace intended by nature. We interfere because we can't afford it Financially or emotionally. If our child has normal healthy feelings that we are not mature enough to deal with, we medicate them. We blame THEM for having a natural response to the unhealthy conditions WE created! That's our Wonderful System,, then we're not allowed to point the finger at them,, and we're called a Terrorist!

Friday, April 12, 2013

reversing the Disconnect from how Nature works.

 Mentally/Spiritually Fitness,, reversing the Disconnect from how Nature works.

Our Society has become basically Severed from the way Nature works and do not even realize it. This is a very scary fact. People have NO idea how much they have been programmed to not heed the signs and symptoms that nature is clearing sending. Rather than things being simple and automatic, people have learned to value mind over matter mentality instead of Mind WITH matter. Reality is sending us signals and we actually need to Utilize that information to make our decisions. We do this when we ski, learn to ride a bike, learn to walk or any other basic activity. WHY, then don't we do it all the time in our relations with others and our surroundings? How can we think we can dictate when Nature and Physics can and cannot give us feedback?? That, Right there, should be a Clear sign that we are out of alignment with Physics. It's really so simple I can't even believe I feel the need to write about it! I mean, How can anyone think they can override Physics?! But, I guess, when you've had people bow to you all your life, had the ability to control and manipulate through power and cheating, the natural course of events would be for those with the most power to come down with a Serious case of Psychosis! And those without power to be the other extreme of that, diminished.
  One of my Favorite lines from a movie that hits the nail on the head of what is/has happened is from JAWS. Chief Brody says to Hooper and Quint, "Why don't we start leading the shark back to shore instead of him leading us out to sea?" Chief Brody awoke to realize what was happening. That they were unconsciously getting caught up in the chase and that they were being lead by the shark further and further away from their territory and into Shark territory! That is Exactly what is happening to the U.S. and other countries for decades. The Elite are creating an environment fully of their own making, shrinking us more and more into an environment they want and what benefits them and further and further away from Nature, from Real feedback, from our own instincts and ability to listen inward. 
 Societal Dementia or Societal Multiple Sclerosis could be used to describe the lack of response that people have to what's happening right under their noses. What else could we call it? There is an obvious lack of response to what is going on from the masses. As if a nerve has been cut. And it has! People have been so far lead out to sea! Out into Elite, Blood thirsty, salivating, terminator like, terrifying, hellish waters! People think it's normal to live in a cage now. Due to our disconnect from the intelligence of how nature works we do not even know what health is and recognize when we've lost our balance. People have gotten so used to the cage, the prison and raising babies in prison they feel at home there. "Institutionalized" like in Shawshank Redemption. Freedom is too scary.
 The way nature works, is through a Negative Feedback loop. That means, when the system gets out of balance, the part of the system that gets into deficiency sends a signal to the rest of the system to send more blood, more O2, more nutrients or whatever that part of the system requires. The rest of the system then Responds by increasing or decreasing the supply. That is the way Health works. An Unhealthy system works by dismissing and ignoring valuable signals coming to it from other parts of the system. This has been internalized to our Families and to our bodies. We're trained to dismiss and cut off, LITERALLY; AMPUTATE parts of our families either emotionally or Spiritually by diminishing what they feel, not treating them with respect or worth, and doing the same to ourselves. We allow ourselves in the workplace to be diminished Spiritually for $$ then transfer than to our children. Pure Poison!

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Nature is the Ultimate Calculator

  I do not understand why it has taken Wall St and the Banksters to create somewhat of an awakening in people when the evidence of a seriously impaired society has been around for decades and is right in front of one's face. To think and believe that it's the Globalists,, the "Illuminati",, the 1%, the Corporatocracy, the Elite or whatever other name we can give them, we then continue to repeat the same thing over again, which is to give our power away. Not to say that those with All the $$ and Power do not take some of the blame and responsibility but, the Signs and Symptoms of our Strayed Away society have been evident WAY before the financial melt down of 08' and the mortgage crisis.
 The level of Complacency and disconnect of the "people" is blatant. This Human "Climate shift" in the perception of people is un-mistaken. The obvious deterioration that people will so gladly put up with, the complete 'asleep at the wheel' that has enveloped too much of the population. The signs and symptoms are Right there! The fact that the focus of our Society is on $$ and Not on health and Nature proves the point. The Monetary system has become a virtual over crowded life boat which has exceeded it's capacity 10x over, the Drunk at the bar who has a blood alcohol level of a Dead man but, there's nothing and No one to say, "You're overloading that boat!" or "I'll call you a cab". Due to the salivation of $$ it has eroded our sense of decency, our humanity. The same way an Ulcer eats through the lining of the stomach or how a Hernia pushes it's way through to the inguinal ring, the opening to the inguinal canal.
 We have a SERIOUS problem! ALL of us,, not just those without $$ and power but, also, those with it. They just have it at the opposite end of the spectrum. They are our Reflection,, like it or not and we are theirs. We are the Dysfunctional Family gone Global!
 When I grew up I could feel there was something Seriously wrong by the time I was 6 or 7 years old. I could feel that I was being raised all wrong and very unhealthily. I was made to feel "indebted" before the age of 10. "I brought you into this world now you owe me", was the attitude. People who have kids by accident, don't really want them and begrudgingly have you so they don't feel they went against the Church by having an abortion. Having a child just to Not have an abortion is a DEBT way of doing things! Then telling a child, "I didn't abort you, you owe me" is a Totally DEBT mentality and teaches a child right from the beginning,, "you Owe!" That is NOT a True "family". That is the deterioration of the family by Capitalism. The $$ system Eroding the boundaries of the Family and intruding on the values that should remain intact.
  People who are on the + Plus side of life, meaning, people who have room for caring, and respect, people who SAVE room for giving and consideration. People who did Not wear the family system down to the Bone and actually left some muscle tissue and ligaments! Some lubrication! Gee whiz, what a concept. Last time I checked,, the Ideal way to build and Not tear down was to stress something or someone the Right amount! Give a child Age Appropriate responsibility,, much like weight training,, incrementally. Not different than wearing the appropriate show size. Why is it that we have NO problem knowing that we have to increase the size of our shoes as we get bigger but, we can't grasp the fact that we need to increase or decrease the amount of Stress we place on our kids?? Too much tears down,, too little creates slack. Is that such a difficult concept to understand? Because, like it or not, that's the way Nature works! All it takes is a little bit of paying attention. Gee, what's that?? People aren't even Raised themselves before bringing more people into the world that need raising. If you're not raised yourself, how can you Possibly Elevate someone else?? You can't! That's why we have a population of Unconscious people who have Created the 1% who want to Exterminate us and use us for their garbage dump! We asked for it. We're pushing up against their lifestyle the more we breed which forces them to push back on us! Everything is Crashing,, not just the Economy!  Like a tube of toothpaste. Something has to give.
   Maybe not everyone grew up like I did but, they were not very far away from it because no one stepped up to do or say anything. Everyone acted like it was Normal to grow up the way I did. NO one calls a spade and spade and says, "Hey, this is unhealthy", "a kid needs to be brought up right", "a kid needs a stable, supportive family". Health IS what it IS. Nature does NOT screw around. We get ONE chance growing up, ONE!
 The way I learned about debt had NOTHING to do with $$. It had to do with respect, self worth, time, energy and attention. REAL value comes from treating children with respect, giving them you're time and attention. Children are the REAL Stock, the REAL investment along with the environment. $$ should be working FOR all these things. $$ should be backing theses things, NOT be in the drivers seat with the Real value taking a back seat and being compromised for something man made! The fact that we do not see this is even MORE proof the we are so far gone! How no one can see that this shift towards putting something man made before what Nature makes is completely baffling to me.
 I could feel myself being robbed when I was a kid. I could literally FEEL the life being robbed from me at a very early age. I could FEEL myself being drained and energetically bled. I was, and many others were to some degree, taught to keep themselves in debt right from the start. You were brought here as a commodity,, with a job. Not as a Free person with a bit of room to breathe and room to grow and the time to grow.
 I grew up in a Debt mentality family, a Poverty mentality. You are NOT going to raise healthy, free children with a Debt/Poverty Mentality. SIMPLE. Too many people do not even realize what having a child is all about. They teach their kids to perpetuate the system rather than change it or to be an initiator. The bring kids into the world to take from rather than to Give To. So rather than making Deposits into a child's Emotional welfare, parents are tapping into it. Depleting it,, Just like someone skimming off the top at work. The Family is like the Work place!
 I, literally, had life robbed from me as a child. I could actually feel myself getting darker inside. That a huge part of me had died. I grew up in a family who brought 2 kids into the world by accident. They were people who were not healthy or in Love. This is how Debt starts. It's like falling while skiing or a crash while driving, if you don't have a handle on something, you don't have a handle on it! It's about being able to do things in a relaxed way with a relative amount of ease. We should be able to be comfortable and focused like we would be playing or learning a game of tennis. Like a shoulder on a highway, there's needs to be some cushion. If we do not feel that we have the hang of something or that we do not have a real grip on it, it will get away from us. We will fall, miss the ball, crash, what ever. This is NOT the problem! The problem is lying! Hiding hit, Not admitting it, covering it up. When did telling the truth become unthinkable?? It isn't Just Bradley Manning who is a criminal for telling the truth! Again, it came along WAY before him.