,,,Was what my cousin said to me yesterday in the slow, traffic, crawling drive to NJ with my other cousin, his sister, and her husband, in response to my saying, "there are too many people, not deer", in response to people saying "there are too many deer". We were talking about all the dead deer and other animals on the highway during the drive from NY to Ohio to go visit my brother in the hospital.
RIGHT Nature is Wrong! Nature is the one out of Balance!!! Not us!! The Dead Deer are the ones our of Sync with Natural Law,, we're not!
Sorry to say, but I TRULY think this society is Done! The same way that my brother's symptoms were ignored for too long which led to his serious injury,, which I don't here Anyone disputing, we're calling NATURE the one who's our of alignment!! Does that make sense?? Why is it that I don't hear anyone saying that The Body is wrong!? The injury and the response by the body to being dismissed and disregarded,, is incorrect??
Everyone seems to unconsciously agree that Nature is running the show in that case and that when Nature/the Body says I'm done,. then it's,, Done, and YET, when there are a count of over 40 dead deer on the Road driving from NY to Ohio, it's "there are too many deer?"
My not reproducing is not enough for me to do in curbing the passing down of the debt and pollution to the next generation,, I should "kill myself" if I think there are too many people and it's PEOPLE who are the one's out of sync with Nature because of Fake $$
What should my response have been to someone, let alone,, a cousin saying that? I'm far from perfect but, if there's one thing I do make an effort practicing,, it's healthy relating. Noticing when my responses to situations and to people is, healthy or not. Most people do not pay attention to what healthy relationships are, to whether or not they're being Co-Dependent or not, or whether or not they're being "Enablers". Who's going to stand up to people when they're behaving out of line or bullying when, again, it's the very people who should be on your side supporting you who are the very people you need to come up with the "funds" to take on??!! The fact is,, You can NEVER get strong as long as you're always doing the doggie paddle and depleting your energy on people who have the label of "Family" yet are the one's you have to defend against.
All you have to do is pay attention to your body, Period, not just when you have an injury, but ALL the time,, so you can be Adding to it when you're not injured! Does that makes sense according to Nature, that you're going to start having a relationship with your body when it's ready to Divorce and break up with you!!?? Now, that you've bankrupted your Health account is not the time to start learning to manage your health/energy. I guess it's never too late but, it would have been much smarter to develop a healthy relationship to your self and others a looong time ago, not when they no longer want to have anything to do with you.
I mean, if ones own body wants a divorce,, that's good enough for me to listen to!
"Family" was arguing in the car yesterday about, being "free" to enjoy life and "doing what you want" and "I" don't have the right to "inflict" my views on Health on anyone. I was saying how most people are their own worst enemies and all their "wanting" is harming themselves.
Guess no one has learned anything about this tragic incident that happened to my brother, because if they did they would get that,, NATURE IS THE ONE THAT WILL INFLICT on you if you don't respect it!! That's the whole point, it's not ME saying it,, I'm advocating people to listen to Nature, to their bodies,, NOT their Addicted, programmed self! This coming from a guy who, I later found out, was arrested and jailed for 6 months for drunk driving! Ok,, Right,, we should be "free" to do what we want,, inflict our drunk driving on others?? Then, society, when it does work properly, doesn't have the right to "inflict" upon us by not allowing us to drive drunk.
So where's the lesson learned, again? I'm wondering, when someone is arrested and jailed for driving drunk, isn't it mandatory to be made to go to AA/12 step meetings?? I mean, if people are not required to attend AA after driving drunk, then what's the incentive to change? He was still drinking yesterday at Thanksgiving.
People Can do what ever they want,, go ahead! When the legitimate feedback that does come back at us from the world,, and it will,, eventually. Just be ready for it! It can be deceiving when it does take nature a long time before it slaps us in the face but actually, if we're paying attention, it really doesn't. Nature's voice is there all along speaking to us, we're just not in the habit of tuning in. It takes until we're being Body Slammed before we Get it.
So,, the same way it's not "Fiscally" practical to wait til our bodies are injured and breaking down to begin developing a healthy relationship with it and begin listening to it,, so it goes with our relationships to the PEOPLE in our lives and then the EARTH/Natural Law!! Like yesterday in the ride to NJ with "family" and the "Normal" responses you get from them like I don't know what I'm talking about and that "I" couldn't Possibly know something that they don't know,, even though I've been studying and practicing Health on ALL levels ALL my life!! When people feel challenged,, instead of allowing themselves to BE challenged,, allow themselves to Let another person give to them and teach them,, they Block it!! So we basically interact with each other the way we treat ourselves and our bodies,, We Dismiss and we ignore!! We treat "family" like they know nothing rather than respecting they're input and behaving as if they just Might have something of value to say!
All this is going on right under our noses,, and no one sees it!!
Friday, November 29, 2013
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Man Knows better than Nature
Ok,, I cannot help but feel this tremendous amount of urgency in how delayed we are in our response time to nature and health. If we think about how quickly a healthy body responds to a virus or sickness and then look at ourselves,, We lost! We've slacked off for way too long and taught of kids to slack off too. We, literally, have dismissed Nature's signals for so loooooong that it's just plain normal to us now. We've gotten so smug that we really are convinced that we know better than nature.
When we ignore our own or another persons LEGITIMATE feelings, we are creating a debt that ends up perpetuating itself indefinitely.
I started wondering why my brothers body was not arrested when it collapsed from the spinal cord injury?? Might sound like a silly thing to ponder but, when you think about it, people are criminalized every day for telling the truth so, why not criminalize the body when it gets sick and has had enough!? Why not criminalize and jail the animals and the environment for getting polluted?? How is it criminal or "un American" to question one's Government when it's a natural healthy response no different than the response your body has if you were to swallow Draino!!
How dare Nature have a Normal response to a sick condition,, we learn to blame the effect instead of the cause. That's been going on way before the crash of 08. I have no idea what took people Sooo long to realize something is seriously wrong.
The problem is, the further out to sea we've drifted, the more painful it is to realize and begin turning back. The further we've drifted away from Health, the more health and Nature will be beckoning us, maybe I should use the word,, "nagging" because once we ignore it,, it's calls get more and more irritating, then, we ignore it even more, creating a never ending perpetuation of Sickness and Debt. Why not face it? What better do we have to do? Oh, yes, that's right,, WORK for Fake $$!! Must keep system going. It Literally Bugs me out! How we are TOO busy screwing ourselves to Stop screwing ourselves!!
FACT: Nature's Nagging is calling us to someone so much GREATER and so much More Amazing than Anything this Man Made system could ever give us, and All we do is ignore it! And say,, "No thanks Nature, I'm too busy being Stupid and enslaved to be the incredible, smart, evolved person you're guiding me to be!"
THINK ABOUT IT,, We're telling NATURE it's WRONG!!?!? When it's Screaming and crying and pleading and being blown to smithereens, and warming and going extinct and starving and drying up and disastering,, is it any wonder that someone living in this country can be so disconnected from their own body breaking down and not heed the warnings?
I imagine what happened to my brother and magnify that 10 Billion times! That is one person's personal system Crash! What's it going to look like when the entire system comes crashing down??
It isn't just the Physical signs and symptoms we ignore, it's the emotional ones. We are so ignorant to health and Nature we are CLUELESS as to the CLEAR cues it's giving us emotionally. We look at people with NORMAL anger, legitimate fear, neediness, Trauma, sadness, depression, starvation, criminality, psychosis, etc and we continue TURNING AWAY!! ?? We continue doing the Very thing that created the conditions in the first place!! That is ,, Remarkable!! And, also, is a sign of a Very Sick Society!!
The way NATURE works, what a healthy, Natural response would be if Nature was allowed to act without the mind/program interfering, would be to address the problem, to go into, to Heal, the debt, to Integrate it. It certainly wouldn't judge it and add to the illness.
The very definition of Nature is to HEAL. Only when the illness takes over and gains a good deal of leverage will it Not be able to recover. I Pray that is not where our society is at! For the time being it seems as though it is. It seems as though there is not enough for Healing to jump start itself. There needs to be something for it to grab onto. All the Corruption and evil that has accumulated is spreading more and more wildly. Where are the White Blood cells? If we could do a "white blood cell count" of the healthy people rising up, what would it amount to? Would it be enough of a boost to jump start the entire system into healing? I fear at times, there isn't, I hope I'm wrong, I hope that things don't have to go down too badly but, I have a feeling it does.
There is NO question that our Society needs to be Defibrillated! Shocked back into a more normal rhythm, from the Ventricular Fibrillation we are currently in!
Why? Fake $$ that's why! A Man Made toxic poison/disease that has been taken over by Ill people and driven us away from ourselves.
The problem is, we never had the chance to get in touch with ourselves to begin with! So our innocent, naive ,selves have gotten led astray even more!
We accept the low set bar for ourselves rather than raising it! the way Nature intended. It's as if someone opened us up early on and rewired us to fit the system Against the way our True Natures function.
THINK ABOUT THAT!! Training Nature to be what We want and respond the way WE want,, rather than listening to Nature's healthy responses!!
If that doesn't scare the crap out of most people,, I don't know what will?? There it is,, a Blatant Injury to our Nervous Systems! Maybe not immediately but, over time it amounts to the same thing! Robbery. The more the Truth is offensive ,, the Further off coarse your mind and body have strayed.
We need a Heath check on this.
When we ignore our own or another persons LEGITIMATE feelings, we are creating a debt that ends up perpetuating itself indefinitely.
I started wondering why my brothers body was not arrested when it collapsed from the spinal cord injury?? Might sound like a silly thing to ponder but, when you think about it, people are criminalized every day for telling the truth so, why not criminalize the body when it gets sick and has had enough!? Why not criminalize and jail the animals and the environment for getting polluted?? How is it criminal or "un American" to question one's Government when it's a natural healthy response no different than the response your body has if you were to swallow Draino!!
How dare Nature have a Normal response to a sick condition,, we learn to blame the effect instead of the cause. That's been going on way before the crash of 08. I have no idea what took people Sooo long to realize something is seriously wrong.
The problem is, the further out to sea we've drifted, the more painful it is to realize and begin turning back. The further we've drifted away from Health, the more health and Nature will be beckoning us, maybe I should use the word,, "nagging" because once we ignore it,, it's calls get more and more irritating, then, we ignore it even more, creating a never ending perpetuation of Sickness and Debt. Why not face it? What better do we have to do? Oh, yes, that's right,, WORK for Fake $$!! Must keep system going. It Literally Bugs me out! How we are TOO busy screwing ourselves to Stop screwing ourselves!!
FACT: Nature's Nagging is calling us to someone so much GREATER and so much More Amazing than Anything this Man Made system could ever give us, and All we do is ignore it! And say,, "No thanks Nature, I'm too busy being Stupid and enslaved to be the incredible, smart, evolved person you're guiding me to be!"
THINK ABOUT IT,, We're telling NATURE it's WRONG!!?!? When it's Screaming and crying and pleading and being blown to smithereens, and warming and going extinct and starving and drying up and disastering,, is it any wonder that someone living in this country can be so disconnected from their own body breaking down and not heed the warnings?
I imagine what happened to my brother and magnify that 10 Billion times! That is one person's personal system Crash! What's it going to look like when the entire system comes crashing down??
It isn't just the Physical signs and symptoms we ignore, it's the emotional ones. We are so ignorant to health and Nature we are CLUELESS as to the CLEAR cues it's giving us emotionally. We look at people with NORMAL anger, legitimate fear, neediness, Trauma, sadness, depression, starvation, criminality, psychosis, etc and we continue TURNING AWAY!! ?? We continue doing the Very thing that created the conditions in the first place!! That is ,, Remarkable!! And, also, is a sign of a Very Sick Society!!
The way NATURE works, what a healthy, Natural response would be if Nature was allowed to act without the mind/program interfering, would be to address the problem, to go into, to Heal, the debt, to Integrate it. It certainly wouldn't judge it and add to the illness.
The very definition of Nature is to HEAL. Only when the illness takes over and gains a good deal of leverage will it Not be able to recover. I Pray that is not where our society is at! For the time being it seems as though it is. It seems as though there is not enough for Healing to jump start itself. There needs to be something for it to grab onto. All the Corruption and evil that has accumulated is spreading more and more wildly. Where are the White Blood cells? If we could do a "white blood cell count" of the healthy people rising up, what would it amount to? Would it be enough of a boost to jump start the entire system into healing? I fear at times, there isn't, I hope I'm wrong, I hope that things don't have to go down too badly but, I have a feeling it does.
There is NO question that our Society needs to be Defibrillated! Shocked back into a more normal rhythm, from the Ventricular Fibrillation we are currently in!
Why? Fake $$ that's why! A Man Made toxic poison/disease that has been taken over by Ill people and driven us away from ourselves.
The problem is, we never had the chance to get in touch with ourselves to begin with! So our innocent, naive ,selves have gotten led astray even more!
We accept the low set bar for ourselves rather than raising it! the way Nature intended. It's as if someone opened us up early on and rewired us to fit the system Against the way our True Natures function.
THINK ABOUT THAT!! Training Nature to be what We want and respond the way WE want,, rather than listening to Nature's healthy responses!!
If that doesn't scare the crap out of most people,, I don't know what will?? There it is,, a Blatant Injury to our Nervous Systems! Maybe not immediately but, over time it amounts to the same thing! Robbery. The more the Truth is offensive ,, the Further off coarse your mind and body have strayed.
We need a Heath check on this.
Bodily Debt
It's hard for me to understand that it takes people a pretty long time to put 2 & 2 together. Many people do not understand how we, very seriously, have been conditioned FOR the benefit of Society at our OWN expense. For some reason, I was able to get a really good look at it early on, and despite numerous emotional bludgeonings, I've managed to hold onto it. Spending time alone can be a difficult thing but, it can also be a gift. This is where the challenge comes in. Most people give up some part of themselves to be in relationships. The unfortunate reality is, that we don't get to fully be all of who we really are growing up. We learn as kids that we have to give up what we feel, get Blackmailed because we live in someone elses' house, eating "their" food, needing "their" $$, we really never get to be free to be who we really are.
So much gets taken from us growing up and we don't even know it. We're trained to be our own worst enemy because we were raised by enemies. Where else do we learn it from? We learn to accept less in life, to live with,, "it's not that bad" and be alright with it. It's Not the 1% who are the enemies, although they do play a distant role. We need to look closer, we need to look at how we and those around us are the ones trained to keep it all going even though it's screwing us.
So many people never realize how our emotions were altered to benefit the system at our expense. We're trained that our Normal, healthy feelings and emotions are wrong, excessive, or bad. This is what creates DEBT in our Health. We can't be healthy physically until we are healthy emotionally because being trained to use our minds to contort our emotions wreaks havoc on our bodies. When we come into this world we're born with mind and body in sync, in our instincts, as one, the way they're supposed to be. Of course, that doesn't last very long and by the time we're a toddler we've already inherited a barrage of unhealthy teachings.
Depending on the level of emotional health of our caregivers, we can learn to put our needs second and the "caregiver's" first. I believe that's where the "Too Big to Fail" comes from. The accumulation of too many people who were taught to not question parents and simply blindly follow. Because we "need" our "caregivers" we allow them to take from us and make excuses for their abusive, unhealthy behavior. We learn as kids to "donate" our energy to them so that they will be in a better position to take care of us but, then it never works out that way. We keep giving up more and more of ourselves to prop up the Too Big to Fails. We're a captive audience so there's nothing we can do about it, We're Screwed!
Parents can do what ever they want to their kids, subtly, emotionally, over time and, as long as they don't leave visible injuries or wounds, get away with it. Parents can be the biggest purveor of abuse against a completely innocent child and that child can do NOTHING to stop it!! With "Parents" doing the job FOR the Powers that BE, the PTB are Free to act in as Corrupt behavior as they please and have out help in acquiring more and more power. Where else does this come from if it doesn't come from Families?
Just like as children we fear standing up to parents, although many kids do and end up on the streets, because we need them and have no where else to go in many instances, we then carry that mentality to our jobs when we grow up and never stand up to Bosses because we'll be out on the street with no $$ and no job.
Our society is crashing! The accumulation of all of the unhealthy ways we were taught to relate is coming to ahead.
There are not enough people who face important things that are screaming for our attention. Not just our Physical bodies but our emotions that we've been taught to bury.
We'd better get out the shovel!! And begin the PAINFUL process of digging our Authentic self out from under the false self that is bent on destroying ourselves.
My brother is in the process of this right now! Big time! His Bill has come due! And he has NO choice now but to be confronted with the Harsh reality of the serious situation that, he, unfortunately, took part in.
Even with the situation being as serious as it is people STILL do not want to face the truth. they STILL try to deny the reality and steal a little more "credit" from?? Somewhere. People don't want to accept life on life's terms and that the Earth, their Bodies all have limits.
If we want to know accounting, pay attention to your body, to the earth, animals, people, anything that comes from Nature/God. We've have been led astray by the Fakery that man makes and have completely fallen for the Illusion. We have lost touch with what's real, what has true value and what makes life meaningful for cheap imitation man made garbage. $$ HAS LED US ASTRAY.
Begin to pay closer attention to people, really look at them, listen to them, make a connection. We need to bring Nature BACK into our lives by going Slower in life. Nature moves SLOW, does things with quality
So much gets taken from us growing up and we don't even know it. We're trained to be our own worst enemy because we were raised by enemies. Where else do we learn it from? We learn to accept less in life, to live with,, "it's not that bad" and be alright with it. It's Not the 1% who are the enemies, although they do play a distant role. We need to look closer, we need to look at how we and those around us are the ones trained to keep it all going even though it's screwing us.
So many people never realize how our emotions were altered to benefit the system at our expense. We're trained that our Normal, healthy feelings and emotions are wrong, excessive, or bad. This is what creates DEBT in our Health. We can't be healthy physically until we are healthy emotionally because being trained to use our minds to contort our emotions wreaks havoc on our bodies. When we come into this world we're born with mind and body in sync, in our instincts, as one, the way they're supposed to be. Of course, that doesn't last very long and by the time we're a toddler we've already inherited a barrage of unhealthy teachings.
Depending on the level of emotional health of our caregivers, we can learn to put our needs second and the "caregiver's" first. I believe that's where the "Too Big to Fail" comes from. The accumulation of too many people who were taught to not question parents and simply blindly follow. Because we "need" our "caregivers" we allow them to take from us and make excuses for their abusive, unhealthy behavior. We learn as kids to "donate" our energy to them so that they will be in a better position to take care of us but, then it never works out that way. We keep giving up more and more of ourselves to prop up the Too Big to Fails. We're a captive audience so there's nothing we can do about it, We're Screwed!
Parents can do what ever they want to their kids, subtly, emotionally, over time and, as long as they don't leave visible injuries or wounds, get away with it. Parents can be the biggest purveor of abuse against a completely innocent child and that child can do NOTHING to stop it!! With "Parents" doing the job FOR the Powers that BE, the PTB are Free to act in as Corrupt behavior as they please and have out help in acquiring more and more power. Where else does this come from if it doesn't come from Families?
Just like as children we fear standing up to parents, although many kids do and end up on the streets, because we need them and have no where else to go in many instances, we then carry that mentality to our jobs when we grow up and never stand up to Bosses because we'll be out on the street with no $$ and no job.
Our society is crashing! The accumulation of all of the unhealthy ways we were taught to relate is coming to ahead.
There are not enough people who face important things that are screaming for our attention. Not just our Physical bodies but our emotions that we've been taught to bury.
We'd better get out the shovel!! And begin the PAINFUL process of digging our Authentic self out from under the false self that is bent on destroying ourselves.
My brother is in the process of this right now! Big time! His Bill has come due! And he has NO choice now but to be confronted with the Harsh reality of the serious situation that, he, unfortunately, took part in.
Even with the situation being as serious as it is people STILL do not want to face the truth. they STILL try to deny the reality and steal a little more "credit" from?? Somewhere. People don't want to accept life on life's terms and that the Earth, their Bodies all have limits.
If we want to know accounting, pay attention to your body, to the earth, animals, people, anything that comes from Nature/God. We've have been led astray by the Fakery that man makes and have completely fallen for the Illusion. We have lost touch with what's real, what has true value and what makes life meaningful for cheap imitation man made garbage. $$ HAS LED US ASTRAY.
Begin to pay closer attention to people, really look at them, listen to them, make a connection. We need to bring Nature BACK into our lives by going Slower in life. Nature moves SLOW, does things with quality
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Humans SUCK at MATH
I simply cannot believe how badly I've watched people my entire life, supposed "ADULTS", "GROWN UPS", completely SUCK at MATH! Completely SUCK at being the "authority" that they're supposed to be. Totally DENY the reality and the feedback coming at them from their surroundings, from their children then, cover things up with MORE Debt, More Denial instead of "Simply" admitting things!? All they have is the Position of "Authority" MINUS the QUALIFICATIONS. Authority is MORE than the Label.
I'm having terrible Deja Vue feelings all over again, same as when I was very young and all people around me would say, "oh your poor parents", I was the criminal for not being able to afford to be taking care and feeling sorry for the very people who're supposed to be caring for me! I'm to blame that I don't have it to give to Them! It's Psychosis in it's clearest form! People just want to TAKE but, Never give, then wonder why the resources don't exist! It's not just the Interest, that Peter Joseph talks about in Zeitgeist Addendum, that does NOT exist in circulation outright, it's the Knowledge, the Compassion, the relationship skills, Environmental Health, understanding, the LOVE, Does Not exist! We are allowing the fake system to take More and MORE of us! IF others don't see it and want to follow, that's on them, NOT ME. An if that makes ME the bad guy,, then SO be it!
It's happening AGAIN,, now with my brother. Like the Fed prints Fake $ out of Thin air!! I'm supposed to Magically,, Come up with the Emotional Funds,, The ONLY funds that are REAL,, to be dealing with this situation with my brother. How much stress can on person afford in one lifetime?
Someone who is not a victim, who made extremely poor choices to put himself where he is and other people are supposed to "bail him out" without looking at and admitting that he messed up. Why give to someone who had blatant disregard in the first place? Why be so quick, without looking, doing the same thing he did, letting that person, perhaps, screw you too? I mean, if you're going to step in and "help" then you, at least, have the right to ponder the situation to find out whether or not you're efforts and energy will be used wisely and that you're not contributing to more of the same poor decisions.
There's a reason why people are "Poor". When are we/they going to Learn to STOP being
CO DEPENDENT and dysfunctional? When are people going to look at the way they relate and behave and start making better choices that actually ADD to one's life rather than diminish.
The same thing is happening Nationwide with the people beginning to awaken and protest against the way the Gov/Fed uses THEIR tax $$ to wage fake wars against innocent people just to rob these countries of their resources and the "Elite" can take over the world and create their New World Order! Knowing what you are contributing to and being able to decide whether or not you have the energy and want to spend it on such things is YOUR choice!
So, just because this is our country doesn't mean we're a Captive audience and the Powers that Be can do what ever they want with our fake $$ and our energy/emotions. Because it's OUR country, OUR energy, our resources, that means WE get to decide where it's spent. That's the whole point! The "leaders" are supposed to be working in representation of the PEOPLE and they are NOT! So WHY fund you're own screwing? Just because it's "family", I have NO choice but to feel forced to "come up" with feelings I don't have, $$ I don't have?? I have to take care of him if it comes to it because he made poor choices with his life and automatically everyone has to "bail him out" now? Without so much as an apology from him for the way he has effected everyone's life!? Why would people do that?
I've been speaking with many cousins and people who've driven with my brother over the years, myself included, who know my brother is a reckless driver. They've been telling me how they drove with him doing 85 mph on the GSP in NJ to or from Atlantic City in the rain while fiddling with his GPS/iphone and my cousins Pete, Joe and Uncle were telling him slow down and my brother called them the "P" word, jokingly, I'm sure. They said that only ONE other care had been going faster than my brother was and then a bit up the road they saw that car overturned in the median!
Another cousin told me her teenaged daughter and her friend drove from Mass. to the city with my brother and were terrified by the experience. I, myself, had my brother pull over on the Belt Pkwy some years back and I got out! because I was terrified of his driving and his attitude to you is basically, F you if you don't like the way I drive! So, all these people, cousins, other relatives and friends who my brother told to screw off i you don't like my driving are just going to, now, jump up, without question, to give to someone what they didn't give you?
Driving like a maniac not only shows No regard for yourself and your own life, drive anyway you want when you're alone, but to say "screw you" to people who are in your car, terrified, telling you to slow down is another story! That's clearly saying, "I don't care about Your life either!" Why would anyone want to screw themselves by jumping now that my brothers carelessness has expired?
That makes NO sense! It would be a smart thing to do and you'd be doing the injured one a huge favor also, by doing something different! By, at the appropriate time, letting them know the truth.
Even though it's himself that my brother has harmed, has very seriously put his body and psyche into a huge debt by blatantly dismissing some pretty obvious signs, he is Still "making withdrawals" on other people's emotions, without their consent, because of what's happened. A heartfelt apology from my brother for the toll that what's happened is taking on the very people he called the "P" word. Although there wasn't anyone else in the car with my brother, thank God, the situation is still hurting others. Then, the fact, that he made More poor choices, "driving" his life with recklessness by ignoring the clear signs from his own body. So, he ignored many people when they told him to slow down, that he's not a safe driver, he ignored people's feedback when they were telling him to go to the Hospital/Doctor when his symptoms were getting obviously worse, AND he ignored and completely disregarded his OWN Body!
Sorry to be the truth exposer here but, does it make sense to do the same and dismiss all that and bail someone out without some sign the person gets what they've done and, perhaps, apologizes to those who's words he disregarded? I just don't think it's so smart to be so quick to forgive people unless you make sure they're not going to continue to do the same thing because Now, he has Still hurt people and is costing emotional heartache to the very people he brushed off! Without a real understanding that the injured person has changed and really gets it, by ignoring the reality, people are continuing to allow the wreckless person to "drive".
The whole point is to take the control away from the unskilled person, to admit that it's obvious that he did not handle things properly, not to continue tippy-toeing around the Obvious issues and Not giving it to someone straight.
The fact is, that it was more the way my brother drove his life than it was the way he drove his car that created most of the harm. Hitting the deer doing 50 in a 30MPH zone was NOT the most damaging. It was the dismissing of the symptoms getting clearly worse over time that caused the most damage to his body.
I live my life a completely different way. I lived in the truth my whole life and people never liked it. I acknowledged the way we grew up as being unhealthy and others, including my brother, thought "it wasn't that bad". The problem is, when you're willing to set the Bar for your life at "not that bad" then you get used to things being Shit. We're being trained to lower the standards of NATURE!! That's what happens when you're raised with low quality standards. If parents are the not the ones teaching their kids to reach higher, to not accept anything less than being treated with the utmost, and INSTEAD, teaching their kids to accept, "Not that bad" as a standard on which to measure your life, than people truly ARE the frog in the pot of boiling water!!
All the emotional toll this situation is "costing" relatives is an investment towards someone who isn't great at managing their life. It is, in a way, Robbery. The fact that we're Ignoring what we're investing our emotions/energy into is a natural thing to start to take a look at. I don't see people running out to help the INNOCENT victims starving and being blown up in other parts of the world. Why don't we feel sorry for the victims? We're so quick to bail out those who made the mess; the FED, Wall St, Bankers, even before they acknowledge it fully and apologize, while we continue to BLAME the victim! BACKWARDS! If we don't admit to things Fully, how are supposed to CHANGE? Nothing changes because we Never slow down enough to Really look at the mess.
What do investigators do when they Really want to find out the truth? I hear people say soo often about the situation with my brother when I try to bring up facts, "oh, that's the past! We have to think of your brother and think of the future. Guess what? you're NOT getting out of the past by trying to push it aside too quickly! In fact, the more you're in a rush to get out of the past,, the MORE is follows you! We have to look at HISTORY and learn from it in order to NOT repeat it. The quicker we try to "move on", sweep things under the carpet, the more it follows us. we have to "Clean" it up completely, get every speck!
FACT; THE MORE FAKE $$ GOES IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION FROM REALITY/NATURE,, the more we will have to choose between the Fake $$ system that is taking us down OR, What has REAL Value and let go of the Man Made $$! The Scary part is, the longer we wait, the less and less of ourselves and our Healthy judgement will possess. It will be no different than being in a state of Hypovolemic shock! We will have a deficiency in our judgement and using that deficiency to perpetuate MORE deficiency. We need to recover our judgement. How? We think we can use our fake $$ to continue buying the reality we want, using $$ or our position at work to fool ourselves and others that we are doing good in life. We try to control the accurate feedback coming at us by Natural Law. Look where that has gotten us! We Must reconnect with Nature!
I'm having terrible Deja Vue feelings all over again, same as when I was very young and all people around me would say, "oh your poor parents", I was the criminal for not being able to afford to be taking care and feeling sorry for the very people who're supposed to be caring for me! I'm to blame that I don't have it to give to Them! It's Psychosis in it's clearest form! People just want to TAKE but, Never give, then wonder why the resources don't exist! It's not just the Interest, that Peter Joseph talks about in Zeitgeist Addendum, that does NOT exist in circulation outright, it's the Knowledge, the Compassion, the relationship skills, Environmental Health, understanding, the LOVE, Does Not exist! We are allowing the fake system to take More and MORE of us! IF others don't see it and want to follow, that's on them, NOT ME. An if that makes ME the bad guy,, then SO be it!
It's happening AGAIN,, now with my brother. Like the Fed prints Fake $ out of Thin air!! I'm supposed to Magically,, Come up with the Emotional Funds,, The ONLY funds that are REAL,, to be dealing with this situation with my brother. How much stress can on person afford in one lifetime?
Someone who is not a victim, who made extremely poor choices to put himself where he is and other people are supposed to "bail him out" without looking at and admitting that he messed up. Why give to someone who had blatant disregard in the first place? Why be so quick, without looking, doing the same thing he did, letting that person, perhaps, screw you too? I mean, if you're going to step in and "help" then you, at least, have the right to ponder the situation to find out whether or not you're efforts and energy will be used wisely and that you're not contributing to more of the same poor decisions.
There's a reason why people are "Poor". When are we/they going to Learn to STOP being
CO DEPENDENT and dysfunctional? When are people going to look at the way they relate and behave and start making better choices that actually ADD to one's life rather than diminish.
The same thing is happening Nationwide with the people beginning to awaken and protest against the way the Gov/Fed uses THEIR tax $$ to wage fake wars against innocent people just to rob these countries of their resources and the "Elite" can take over the world and create their New World Order! Knowing what you are contributing to and being able to decide whether or not you have the energy and want to spend it on such things is YOUR choice!
So, just because this is our country doesn't mean we're a Captive audience and the Powers that Be can do what ever they want with our fake $$ and our energy/emotions. Because it's OUR country, OUR energy, our resources, that means WE get to decide where it's spent. That's the whole point! The "leaders" are supposed to be working in representation of the PEOPLE and they are NOT! So WHY fund you're own screwing? Just because it's "family", I have NO choice but to feel forced to "come up" with feelings I don't have, $$ I don't have?? I have to take care of him if it comes to it because he made poor choices with his life and automatically everyone has to "bail him out" now? Without so much as an apology from him for the way he has effected everyone's life!? Why would people do that?
I've been speaking with many cousins and people who've driven with my brother over the years, myself included, who know my brother is a reckless driver. They've been telling me how they drove with him doing 85 mph on the GSP in NJ to or from Atlantic City in the rain while fiddling with his GPS/iphone and my cousins Pete, Joe and Uncle were telling him slow down and my brother called them the "P" word, jokingly, I'm sure. They said that only ONE other care had been going faster than my brother was and then a bit up the road they saw that car overturned in the median!
Another cousin told me her teenaged daughter and her friend drove from Mass. to the city with my brother and were terrified by the experience. I, myself, had my brother pull over on the Belt Pkwy some years back and I got out! because I was terrified of his driving and his attitude to you is basically, F you if you don't like the way I drive! So, all these people, cousins, other relatives and friends who my brother told to screw off i you don't like my driving are just going to, now, jump up, without question, to give to someone what they didn't give you?
Driving like a maniac not only shows No regard for yourself and your own life, drive anyway you want when you're alone, but to say "screw you" to people who are in your car, terrified, telling you to slow down is another story! That's clearly saying, "I don't care about Your life either!" Why would anyone want to screw themselves by jumping now that my brothers carelessness has expired?
That makes NO sense! It would be a smart thing to do and you'd be doing the injured one a huge favor also, by doing something different! By, at the appropriate time, letting them know the truth.
Even though it's himself that my brother has harmed, has very seriously put his body and psyche into a huge debt by blatantly dismissing some pretty obvious signs, he is Still "making withdrawals" on other people's emotions, without their consent, because of what's happened. A heartfelt apology from my brother for the toll that what's happened is taking on the very people he called the "P" word. Although there wasn't anyone else in the car with my brother, thank God, the situation is still hurting others. Then, the fact, that he made More poor choices, "driving" his life with recklessness by ignoring the clear signs from his own body. So, he ignored many people when they told him to slow down, that he's not a safe driver, he ignored people's feedback when they were telling him to go to the Hospital/Doctor when his symptoms were getting obviously worse, AND he ignored and completely disregarded his OWN Body!
Sorry to be the truth exposer here but, does it make sense to do the same and dismiss all that and bail someone out without some sign the person gets what they've done and, perhaps, apologizes to those who's words he disregarded? I just don't think it's so smart to be so quick to forgive people unless you make sure they're not going to continue to do the same thing because Now, he has Still hurt people and is costing emotional heartache to the very people he brushed off! Without a real understanding that the injured person has changed and really gets it, by ignoring the reality, people are continuing to allow the wreckless person to "drive".
The whole point is to take the control away from the unskilled person, to admit that it's obvious that he did not handle things properly, not to continue tippy-toeing around the Obvious issues and Not giving it to someone straight.
The fact is, that it was more the way my brother drove his life than it was the way he drove his car that created most of the harm. Hitting the deer doing 50 in a 30MPH zone was NOT the most damaging. It was the dismissing of the symptoms getting clearly worse over time that caused the most damage to his body.
I live my life a completely different way. I lived in the truth my whole life and people never liked it. I acknowledged the way we grew up as being unhealthy and others, including my brother, thought "it wasn't that bad". The problem is, when you're willing to set the Bar for your life at "not that bad" then you get used to things being Shit. We're being trained to lower the standards of NATURE!! That's what happens when you're raised with low quality standards. If parents are the not the ones teaching their kids to reach higher, to not accept anything less than being treated with the utmost, and INSTEAD, teaching their kids to accept, "Not that bad" as a standard on which to measure your life, than people truly ARE the frog in the pot of boiling water!!
All the emotional toll this situation is "costing" relatives is an investment towards someone who isn't great at managing their life. It is, in a way, Robbery. The fact that we're Ignoring what we're investing our emotions/energy into is a natural thing to start to take a look at. I don't see people running out to help the INNOCENT victims starving and being blown up in other parts of the world. Why don't we feel sorry for the victims? We're so quick to bail out those who made the mess; the FED, Wall St, Bankers, even before they acknowledge it fully and apologize, while we continue to BLAME the victim! BACKWARDS! If we don't admit to things Fully, how are supposed to CHANGE? Nothing changes because we Never slow down enough to Really look at the mess.
What do investigators do when they Really want to find out the truth? I hear people say soo often about the situation with my brother when I try to bring up facts, "oh, that's the past! We have to think of your brother and think of the future. Guess what? you're NOT getting out of the past by trying to push it aside too quickly! In fact, the more you're in a rush to get out of the past,, the MORE is follows you! We have to look at HISTORY and learn from it in order to NOT repeat it. The quicker we try to "move on", sweep things under the carpet, the more it follows us. we have to "Clean" it up completely, get every speck!
FACT; THE MORE FAKE $$ GOES IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION FROM REALITY/NATURE,, the more we will have to choose between the Fake $$ system that is taking us down OR, What has REAL Value and let go of the Man Made $$! The Scary part is, the longer we wait, the less and less of ourselves and our Healthy judgement will possess. It will be no different than being in a state of Hypovolemic shock! We will have a deficiency in our judgement and using that deficiency to perpetuate MORE deficiency. We need to recover our judgement. How? We think we can use our fake $$ to continue buying the reality we want, using $$ or our position at work to fool ourselves and others that we are doing good in life. We try to control the accurate feedback coming at us by Natural Law. Look where that has gotten us! We Must reconnect with Nature!
Friday, November 22, 2013
Fudging the #'s!!!
I cannot help but feel,, and see more and more strongly how, when I was growing up, And TODAY. people were always, FUDGING THE #'s!! Meaning anytime I had an accurate, outspoken response that someone didn't like to what was happening around me, the "Authority" would, fudge the #'s, use their "magic" powers to fix the accounting to make it come out the way THEY wanted instead of the way it was.
This talk we here lately about "Whistle Blowers" being the "criminal/bad guy" like Bradley/Chelsea Manning, Edward Snowden. Julian Assange, Lynne Stewart, Micheal Hastings,
Aaron Swartz, Jeremy Hammond when the REALITY is that some people are just Normal, Healthy and have a Natural response to Corruption and Injustice. This life is getting more and more Psychotic and we will not be able to continue denying that and covering it up making the Healthy people the Criminals!!
I cannot turn on the radio, watch a Youtube video, watch Russia Today or listen to Alex Jones now without saying to myself, "Saying that since I'm 7!" The dismissive attitude of everyone around me when I was a kid telling me, "Oh, your poor parents, they couldn't take good care of you because no one taught them", bla, bla, bla, and how "I" get made out to be the Criminal at 7 &8 years old for doing them what "whistle blowers" are doing today. My life just happened in more of a , slow and gradual way, rather than the "sudden and violent" that I post many times fro the James Madison quote.
When those who are supposed to be watching out for you, protecting you, and giving you an edge at an early age are NOT doing that and, instead, doing the opposite AND everybody else around is making excuses for them and telling me that I need to be feeling sorry for Them! Which I know I've written about before,, If THAT isn't blatant evidence that we're living in a totally Obvious Corrupt world, I don't know what does!!
It's RIGHT THERE, plain as day, that my resources are being ROBBED and trained to be feeling sorry for the VERY people who are supposed to be supporting ME! No one thinks about the MATH then and there and what that will create down the road. Having my Normal, Healthy reactions to very stressful violent events being made out to be wrong or punishable when they're, instead, SPOT ON ACCURATE. Then, YOU as a child, are forced into an impossible Dilemma of having to CHOOSE between what you KNOW and feel, and the Incompetent, unhealthy people in charge!! THIS IS HOW WE get programmed to keep the status Quo going at the expense of ourselves!
I KNOW that what is happening to my brother now,, whether or not anyone agrees,, is because he learned to be OK with,, "Not that Bad" as good enough, instead of shooting for Optimum, or at least, going in that direction.
I read somewhere a loooooooong time ago that, It's NOT the Trauma or the stress or the horrible event that creates the damage, it's the DENIAL of it! That is Very TRUE!
Not admitting the reality throws everyone Off Coarse, then you stay even MORE off course, yet more again. Instead of admitting the truth, people continue adding more Debt! More denial!
We come into this world with only So many resources, only so much energy. Our young bodies can only handle so much stress and trauma. Parents are supposed to be protecting us for as long as possible until we're strong enough and have built up More resources and strength. THAT'S WEALTH building! Our bodies and Psyches are NOT some kind of Unlimited Bank Account that Parents can use, abuse and exploit for their own selfish misuse, which is what many parents do, whether anyone likes hearing/reading it or not. That's what it's about after all.
I heard/hear people say and think that kids are "resilient", "oh, they bounce right back", just stuff to say to themselves to make themselves feel better so they don't have to face the Truth! So, in other words, kids are like some kind of Samsonite luggage we can toss around and beat upon and not have to worry about the consequences? That is LITERALLY how the attitude has turned!! Children are here for US, to use! Didn't they come with a Money back guarantee? A warranty? Gradually,, that's how the attitude sloooowly turns around! Little by little, "authority" nibbles more and more off the future of their children in very subtle ways. If you show any signs of breakage or usage, then there's something wrong with you!
I heard so many times in my life that "You're too sensitive". You're not allowed to have any showing of limits. Make another feel what they don't want,, Look out!
More people are talking about acknowledging the fact that we are robbing future generations. People are supposed to be teaching and handing something of value down to the future, NOT passing on DEBT and pollution!! I couldn't believe how Obvious it was when I was a very young kid and No body cared! People were Oblivious to the fact that they were Blatantly Screwing you! And why shouldn't they be oblivious? Why not use up your resources and minimize the effects of it when they can do it and get away with it? It's Normal! Must be because No one stopped it or called it what it was. Like throwing one little piece of litter in the street,, what's One little piece going to do? When thousands, millions of children are being born into abusive, poor, starving conditions, that creates, NO FUTURE!
The problem ISN'T being exposed to stress or trauma or violence, it's the DENIAL. When we don't acknowledge the reality and call something what it is, it will keep us going in circles, perpetuating the same thing, SIMPLE! We have to admit
Speaking with cousins of mine recently and hearing them talk about the way my brother drives, not one person hasn't had a terrifying experience with my brother behind the wheel. My cousin "Peter" was telling me about a time when he, my cousin Joe and my Uncle Rob drove down to AC with my brother driving and he said they All vowed to Never drive with my brother again! My cousin Joe wanted to get out of the car and sleep in a hotel, but didn't, my Uncle Rob said, which I've also felt, that it would catch up to my brother one day
This talk we here lately about "Whistle Blowers" being the "criminal/bad guy" like Bradley/Chelsea Manning, Edward Snowden. Julian Assange, Lynne Stewart, Micheal Hastings,
Aaron Swartz, Jeremy Hammond when the REALITY is that some people are just Normal, Healthy and have a Natural response to Corruption and Injustice. This life is getting more and more Psychotic and we will not be able to continue denying that and covering it up making the Healthy people the Criminals!!
I cannot turn on the radio, watch a Youtube video, watch Russia Today or listen to Alex Jones now without saying to myself, "Saying that since I'm 7!" The dismissive attitude of everyone around me when I was a kid telling me, "Oh, your poor parents, they couldn't take good care of you because no one taught them", bla, bla, bla, and how "I" get made out to be the Criminal at 7 &8 years old for doing them what "whistle blowers" are doing today. My life just happened in more of a , slow and gradual way, rather than the "sudden and violent" that I post many times fro the James Madison quote.
When those who are supposed to be watching out for you, protecting you, and giving you an edge at an early age are NOT doing that and, instead, doing the opposite AND everybody else around is making excuses for them and telling me that I need to be feeling sorry for Them! Which I know I've written about before,, If THAT isn't blatant evidence that we're living in a totally Obvious Corrupt world, I don't know what does!!
It's RIGHT THERE, plain as day, that my resources are being ROBBED and trained to be feeling sorry for the VERY people who are supposed to be supporting ME! No one thinks about the MATH then and there and what that will create down the road. Having my Normal, Healthy reactions to very stressful violent events being made out to be wrong or punishable when they're, instead, SPOT ON ACCURATE. Then, YOU as a child, are forced into an impossible Dilemma of having to CHOOSE between what you KNOW and feel, and the Incompetent, unhealthy people in charge!! THIS IS HOW WE get programmed to keep the status Quo going at the expense of ourselves!
I KNOW that what is happening to my brother now,, whether or not anyone agrees,, is because he learned to be OK with,, "Not that Bad" as good enough, instead of shooting for Optimum, or at least, going in that direction.
I read somewhere a loooooooong time ago that, It's NOT the Trauma or the stress or the horrible event that creates the damage, it's the DENIAL of it! That is Very TRUE!
Not admitting the reality throws everyone Off Coarse, then you stay even MORE off course, yet more again. Instead of admitting the truth, people continue adding more Debt! More denial!
We come into this world with only So many resources, only so much energy. Our young bodies can only handle so much stress and trauma. Parents are supposed to be protecting us for as long as possible until we're strong enough and have built up More resources and strength. THAT'S WEALTH building! Our bodies and Psyches are NOT some kind of Unlimited Bank Account that Parents can use, abuse and exploit for their own selfish misuse, which is what many parents do, whether anyone likes hearing/reading it or not. That's what it's about after all.
I heard/hear people say and think that kids are "resilient", "oh, they bounce right back", just stuff to say to themselves to make themselves feel better so they don't have to face the Truth! So, in other words, kids are like some kind of Samsonite luggage we can toss around and beat upon and not have to worry about the consequences? That is LITERALLY how the attitude has turned!! Children are here for US, to use! Didn't they come with a Money back guarantee? A warranty? Gradually,, that's how the attitude sloooowly turns around! Little by little, "authority" nibbles more and more off the future of their children in very subtle ways. If you show any signs of breakage or usage, then there's something wrong with you!
I heard so many times in my life that "You're too sensitive". You're not allowed to have any showing of limits. Make another feel what they don't want,, Look out!
More people are talking about acknowledging the fact that we are robbing future generations. People are supposed to be teaching and handing something of value down to the future, NOT passing on DEBT and pollution!! I couldn't believe how Obvious it was when I was a very young kid and No body cared! People were Oblivious to the fact that they were Blatantly Screwing you! And why shouldn't they be oblivious? Why not use up your resources and minimize the effects of it when they can do it and get away with it? It's Normal! Must be because No one stopped it or called it what it was. Like throwing one little piece of litter in the street,, what's One little piece going to do? When thousands, millions of children are being born into abusive, poor, starving conditions, that creates, NO FUTURE!
The problem ISN'T being exposed to stress or trauma or violence, it's the DENIAL. When we don't acknowledge the reality and call something what it is, it will keep us going in circles, perpetuating the same thing, SIMPLE! We have to admit
Speaking with cousins of mine recently and hearing them talk about the way my brother drives, not one person hasn't had a terrifying experience with my brother behind the wheel. My cousin "Peter" was telling me about a time when he, my cousin Joe and my Uncle Rob drove down to AC with my brother driving and he said they All vowed to Never drive with my brother again! My cousin Joe wanted to get out of the car and sleep in a hotel, but didn't, my Uncle Rob said, which I've also felt, that it would catch up to my brother one day
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Where/What is Health? DISORIENTED
It's been a few days since my last post due to being in Ohio and dealing with my brother's injury. It's a difficult situation when you're forced into a situation having to deal with people who live life in a completely different way than I do. I practice living my life in Truth and fitness, attempting to be awake and growing every day. I've been that way my entire life. I felt it as a kid how confused most people are and the way they lived and were teaching me to live felt very,, twisted to me. I could feel the natural flow in my body getting very mangled and contorted by the very people who are supposed to be caring and supporting me. I could feel the discomfort clearly and would speak out about it all the time. I was always responded to by those around me with minimization and dismissal. I never lost touch with what I felt, however, and would think about it all the time how obvious it was that it was "family" doing their best to separate me from myself rather than helping me strengthen it. I always stayed in touch with the instinct inside of me guiding me no matter how badly those around me tried to get over on me.
Everything I've been teaching myself, studying, practicing all my life is happening all around me as far as how important it is to be aware and pay close attention to your instincts and what your body/emotions feel. I've tried to make deposits to it all my life because I can feel how impossible our society makes it for us to get a really good hold on ourselves, let alone, add to and strengthen it. Living for $$ keeps us on a constant slip and slide forcing us to give up more and more of ourselves, our principles, our common sense, our ethics. it's happening now to educated, intelligent people, not only poor people who are forced even more to sacrifice more and more for $$. The educated people standing up will help the less educated and poor.
So, it's become very obvious that my brother and his GF live on a different path than I do. I live with the goal of Fitness everyday, always striving to learn, grow, admit when I'm wrong and someone knows better than me. I crave learning and having another person know something I don't. I welcome it, unlike many others, who fight it and protect their program.
The whole point of life is to know where you are in time and space. I've blogged about this topic before. We're familiar with North, South, East & West, yet when it comes to admitting we're wrong so we can change direction we deny it and continue repeating the same behaviors that created the mess in the first place.
My point is, if a Spinal Cord injury is not enough to wake a person up, I don't know what is!! Because I'm so used to admitting the "negative" all my life so I can call a spade a spade and do something different and others are not, it can create a very sticky situation. I have to step back from the situation and do what I have to do for myself.
The bottom line,, LIFE IS VERY SIMPLE. That feeling we have when we start to get the hang of skiing, or some other activity that requires focus, where our minds and bodies are in total sync with physics and we don't have to think anymore. That's the way we should be living ALL the time! In every situation in life, we need to accept when we fall and have screwed up so we can learn to improve. The ENTIRE point of life is to gain Mastery over our emotions and our bodies. Not to be living the same over and over while dismissing feedback from life that is giving us valuable cues.
I'm writing this because that's what I feel and see is happening with my brother and his GF in this situation. I don't get the sense that it's really sunk in. I don't see a person who has truly acknowledged the reality of the situation and has changed.
I've dealt with people like that in the past, I've heard it all before from a LOT of people, the attitude of, "Be positive", "don't be Negative". I give up!! Let people live any way they want! PEOPLE ARE LOST! PERIOD!! I'm not going to be seen as the bad guy by people who are lost! I can't believe how bad it is, how "normal" it is for people to be unfit then look at you, who's practicing walking up, and see you as the enemy. Yes! TRUTH and Reality are the enemy to denial and delusion. Yes, people who live their lives in denial are going to see an awake person as the enemy, Period!
I had a run in with my brother's GF over "Be Positive" and that I was "Negative" because I was in NY and she was in Ohio with my brother and I was texting her all kinds of questions about my brothers condition. She called me up telling me he took a down turn and is now on a ventilator and that I had better contact my brother's son and let him know because, "This might be his last chance to see him" were her words. I began asking her things like, does he have a DNR? What are my brother's decisions so that I know what to be prepared for as far as if my brother chooses to be kept alive on some kind of life support? I'm just trying to prepare for the worst case scenario! I asked her if my brother wants to live or is prepared to live, if it came to it, in a "vegetated state".
Her tone from there changed and she became defensive. I wasn't sure what the problem was, and she texted back, "don't come if you're going to upset your brother". I was a bit perplexed but, it became clearer after I arrived there that it's that "be Positive" attitude and my "realist", living in Truth and calling a spade a spade, attitude that she took offense to. I didn't want to go back there. It's a very difficult thing when someone who is a relative has made poor choices that have created a very serious situation and figuring out how to interact so that you're creating healing and not harm but, also, figuring out how to take care of yourself and not allow people to drag you down either.
In my mind, I would expect someone with a Spinal Cord injury would be READY to wake up! So me, the EMT for FDNY that I was, the Personal Trainer for 20 years, the Massage, Yoga, Mediation, BE Present, person that I am, thinks I'm going over to deal with people who are on the same page as me. Ready to acknowledge, ready to make changes, ready to be different and all I felt was that they were continuing to do the same thing!! Fighting me rather than being on the same side. Of course the GF kept "saying" the priority is my brother's recovery yet, not acknowledging the seriousness of the situation. People think that if they keep making light of it and being "positive", that that's the way to go, when in my experience, that is Not and has proven to not work or else he would not be in the situation he's in!
Most people tend to live in circles,, PERIOD! Doing the same shit over and over!! Too many people are so DISORIENTED and think that the signals coming at you are "bad" and continue to ignore valuable feedback. I titled this blog,, WHERE/WHAT IS HEALTH because I see too many people Not know what is and is not good for them. They ignore hat is good and listen to what is not. I've always followed this back to the way we were brought up. That's what happens when we live with less than healthy people who don't teach us right and raise us to be quality people. We get used to things being low quality that we don't even recognize it as such. If we grow up in a dysfunctional/ abusive environment and don't admit the effect it can have on our lives, then we will carry on with treating ourselves the same way.
It was the exact same way when I was a kid and everyone around me would make excuse for my parents and why they couldn't raise me the way I deserved, as if physics was going to be put on hold for them and that the effects of the lax parenting would somehow magically be suspended!!
"Oh, no body's perfect" I would here all the time! So what does that mean?? We go in circles forever??!! We don't acknowledge the truth and do nothing to change coarse?? WTF!! That TERRIFIED me my whole life!! I was life OMG! I'm on a ship lost at sea with incompetents at the steering wheel!! People just continuing to deny the reality and and perpetuate the same garbage over and over.
I see it happening again! People don't want to take a good, hard look within!! At how they FUCKED UP!! That's the ONLY way to change!! That whole BS about,, "Be Positive"is just more unconsciousness being perpetuated so the person doesn't have to face the ugly truth! By saying,, "oh be Positive" people don't learn! You have to look Close at the mess you made. I mean, how else to people solve murders? Accident's? They do autopsies and investigate things! And even then,, we have a lot of corruption covering things up.
They will continue to perpetuate the Same shit because NATURE DOESN'T LIE! It's needs will be satisfied when nature says so. Not living in reality is what created this mess in the first place and they continue to do the same things! You obviously missed a spot if things don't improve. People want to FF to Positive too quick! So they can skip over valuable Clues!! You have to go through not only the Physical challenges now, but also, the Emotional ones. The Mind and Body are attached, like it or not. Even though it's obvious with a Spinal Cord injury that they've had a sever disconnect all along.
My Brother's GF was attempting to make ME out to be some kind of "bad guy" trying to harm my brother and she needs to protect him from Me!! HELLO!! I could have EASILY went over there, guns blaring, pointing the finger at HER who lives with him every day! And watched him deteriorate until he collapsed and could not move, and she's supposed to be an RN. I just don't think people push the "loved ones" hard enough. If you live with someone, whether they're a drug user or an alcoholic and you see them taking themselves down the wrong road, or someone in pain and they're not dealing with it over a month, in order to protect your OWN life, because they are going to bring yo down too, you say to the person,, (because my brother and his GF have broken up over much more trivial things in the past many times) so If walking around deteriorating for over a month isn't something to fight over and break up over,, I don't know what is!!
It all comes down to FITNESS,, how bad do you want to LIVE,, how much are you willing to PUSH. I weight trained and jogged for nearly 30 years!! Pushing myself and digging Deep down because I didn't want to be a loser in life. Guess it doesn't bother most people! They simply don't set that high of standards for themselves, which is why the country/world is Shit! The system doesn't require you to be a Quality person.
I think the GF feels some guilt but, doesn't admit it and that's why she's attempting to put it off on me.
There is NOTHING else in life,, except,, PAST/PRESENT/FUTURE,, with out present moment awareness, all we get is PAST/ FUTURE = a Vicious Cycle!! Get in touch with the REAL you under the Program!!
Everything I've been teaching myself, studying, practicing all my life is happening all around me as far as how important it is to be aware and pay close attention to your instincts and what your body/emotions feel. I've tried to make deposits to it all my life because I can feel how impossible our society makes it for us to get a really good hold on ourselves, let alone, add to and strengthen it. Living for $$ keeps us on a constant slip and slide forcing us to give up more and more of ourselves, our principles, our common sense, our ethics. it's happening now to educated, intelligent people, not only poor people who are forced even more to sacrifice more and more for $$. The educated people standing up will help the less educated and poor.
So, it's become very obvious that my brother and his GF live on a different path than I do. I live with the goal of Fitness everyday, always striving to learn, grow, admit when I'm wrong and someone knows better than me. I crave learning and having another person know something I don't. I welcome it, unlike many others, who fight it and protect their program.
The whole point of life is to know where you are in time and space. I've blogged about this topic before. We're familiar with North, South, East & West, yet when it comes to admitting we're wrong so we can change direction we deny it and continue repeating the same behaviors that created the mess in the first place.
My point is, if a Spinal Cord injury is not enough to wake a person up, I don't know what is!! Because I'm so used to admitting the "negative" all my life so I can call a spade a spade and do something different and others are not, it can create a very sticky situation. I have to step back from the situation and do what I have to do for myself.
The bottom line,, LIFE IS VERY SIMPLE. That feeling we have when we start to get the hang of skiing, or some other activity that requires focus, where our minds and bodies are in total sync with physics and we don't have to think anymore. That's the way we should be living ALL the time! In every situation in life, we need to accept when we fall and have screwed up so we can learn to improve. The ENTIRE point of life is to gain Mastery over our emotions and our bodies. Not to be living the same over and over while dismissing feedback from life that is giving us valuable cues.
I'm writing this because that's what I feel and see is happening with my brother and his GF in this situation. I don't get the sense that it's really sunk in. I don't see a person who has truly acknowledged the reality of the situation and has changed.
I've dealt with people like that in the past, I've heard it all before from a LOT of people, the attitude of, "Be positive", "don't be Negative". I give up!! Let people live any way they want! PEOPLE ARE LOST! PERIOD!! I'm not going to be seen as the bad guy by people who are lost! I can't believe how bad it is, how "normal" it is for people to be unfit then look at you, who's practicing walking up, and see you as the enemy. Yes! TRUTH and Reality are the enemy to denial and delusion. Yes, people who live their lives in denial are going to see an awake person as the enemy, Period!
I had a run in with my brother's GF over "Be Positive" and that I was "Negative" because I was in NY and she was in Ohio with my brother and I was texting her all kinds of questions about my brothers condition. She called me up telling me he took a down turn and is now on a ventilator and that I had better contact my brother's son and let him know because, "This might be his last chance to see him" were her words. I began asking her things like, does he have a DNR? What are my brother's decisions so that I know what to be prepared for as far as if my brother chooses to be kept alive on some kind of life support? I'm just trying to prepare for the worst case scenario! I asked her if my brother wants to live or is prepared to live, if it came to it, in a "vegetated state".
Her tone from there changed and she became defensive. I wasn't sure what the problem was, and she texted back, "don't come if you're going to upset your brother". I was a bit perplexed but, it became clearer after I arrived there that it's that "be Positive" attitude and my "realist", living in Truth and calling a spade a spade, attitude that she took offense to. I didn't want to go back there. It's a very difficult thing when someone who is a relative has made poor choices that have created a very serious situation and figuring out how to interact so that you're creating healing and not harm but, also, figuring out how to take care of yourself and not allow people to drag you down either.
In my mind, I would expect someone with a Spinal Cord injury would be READY to wake up! So me, the EMT for FDNY that I was, the Personal Trainer for 20 years, the Massage, Yoga, Mediation, BE Present, person that I am, thinks I'm going over to deal with people who are on the same page as me. Ready to acknowledge, ready to make changes, ready to be different and all I felt was that they were continuing to do the same thing!! Fighting me rather than being on the same side. Of course the GF kept "saying" the priority is my brother's recovery yet, not acknowledging the seriousness of the situation. People think that if they keep making light of it and being "positive", that that's the way to go, when in my experience, that is Not and has proven to not work or else he would not be in the situation he's in!
Most people tend to live in circles,, PERIOD! Doing the same shit over and over!! Too many people are so DISORIENTED and think that the signals coming at you are "bad" and continue to ignore valuable feedback. I titled this blog,, WHERE/WHAT IS HEALTH because I see too many people Not know what is and is not good for them. They ignore hat is good and listen to what is not. I've always followed this back to the way we were brought up. That's what happens when we live with less than healthy people who don't teach us right and raise us to be quality people. We get used to things being low quality that we don't even recognize it as such. If we grow up in a dysfunctional/ abusive environment and don't admit the effect it can have on our lives, then we will carry on with treating ourselves the same way.
It was the exact same way when I was a kid and everyone around me would make excuse for my parents and why they couldn't raise me the way I deserved, as if physics was going to be put on hold for them and that the effects of the lax parenting would somehow magically be suspended!!
"Oh, no body's perfect" I would here all the time! So what does that mean?? We go in circles forever??!! We don't acknowledge the truth and do nothing to change coarse?? WTF!! That TERRIFIED me my whole life!! I was life OMG! I'm on a ship lost at sea with incompetents at the steering wheel!! People just continuing to deny the reality and and perpetuate the same garbage over and over.
I see it happening again! People don't want to take a good, hard look within!! At how they FUCKED UP!! That's the ONLY way to change!! That whole BS about,, "Be Positive"is just more unconsciousness being perpetuated so the person doesn't have to face the ugly truth! By saying,, "oh be Positive" people don't learn! You have to look Close at the mess you made. I mean, how else to people solve murders? Accident's? They do autopsies and investigate things! And even then,, we have a lot of corruption covering things up.
They will continue to perpetuate the Same shit because NATURE DOESN'T LIE! It's needs will be satisfied when nature says so. Not living in reality is what created this mess in the first place and they continue to do the same things! You obviously missed a spot if things don't improve. People want to FF to Positive too quick! So they can skip over valuable Clues!! You have to go through not only the Physical challenges now, but also, the Emotional ones. The Mind and Body are attached, like it or not. Even though it's obvious with a Spinal Cord injury that they've had a sever disconnect all along.
My Brother's GF was attempting to make ME out to be some kind of "bad guy" trying to harm my brother and she needs to protect him from Me!! HELLO!! I could have EASILY went over there, guns blaring, pointing the finger at HER who lives with him every day! And watched him deteriorate until he collapsed and could not move, and she's supposed to be an RN. I just don't think people push the "loved ones" hard enough. If you live with someone, whether they're a drug user or an alcoholic and you see them taking themselves down the wrong road, or someone in pain and they're not dealing with it over a month, in order to protect your OWN life, because they are going to bring yo down too, you say to the person,, (because my brother and his GF have broken up over much more trivial things in the past many times) so If walking around deteriorating for over a month isn't something to fight over and break up over,, I don't know what is!!
It all comes down to FITNESS,, how bad do you want to LIVE,, how much are you willing to PUSH. I weight trained and jogged for nearly 30 years!! Pushing myself and digging Deep down because I didn't want to be a loser in life. Guess it doesn't bother most people! They simply don't set that high of standards for themselves, which is why the country/world is Shit! The system doesn't require you to be a Quality person.
I think the GF feels some guilt but, doesn't admit it and that's why she's attempting to put it off on me.
There is NOTHING else in life,, except,, PAST/PRESENT/FUTURE,, with out present moment awareness, all we get is PAST/ FUTURE = a Vicious Cycle!! Get in touch with the REAL you under the Program!!
Monday, November 11, 2013
The Family as a Muscle group
Spending all this week with my brother and is Spinal Cord injury and participating in his rehabilitation and care has put me back in touch with all of the personal training, Yoga, EMT/FDNY jobs I used to have. It also puts me in touch with the fact that we live in a society that has no problem diagnosing and treating physical injuries and trauma but not emotional health. Being with my brother and seeing the incredible way the body functions and doesn't function when not given the respect it demands makes me think back to my readings and watching of John Bradshaw. He used to be on KQED 13 in the Bay area when I lived there in the early 90's. John Bradshaw would show family system interaction, demonstrating it with a mobile. He would explain that if the parents didn't interact and relate in healthy balanced ways, each getting their healthy needs met from each other, it would create an imbalance in the entire system, kind of like a muscle group.
Seeing my brother and how his body is having a very difficult time communicating with itself and relating the way it used to reminds me of the way many people/families relate to one another with the interactions being less than optimum. There are many different levels of dysfunction and the problem comes when people begin defending and making excuses for their dysfunction. Of course it would be entirely ridiculous if my brother collapsed, unable to get up, was wheeled into the emergency room and was in complete denial of his injuries. Unless, of course, he had some injury to his brain also. His physical injuries are pretty blatant and unmistakable. He would not be offended when the doctor comes over to him and says, "you, sir, have a spinal cord injury". The fact that many people live Not at their full capacity already, yet, try to say to someone, "you are living at a less-than fully functioning level" and you would get all kinds of excuses and denial. WHY? My Favorite quote by James Madison again,, that's why! Because the slow and gradual is more dangerous than the sudden and the violent. Things that happen to us more gradually over time are much harder to see and slowly become more accepted as a part of us. If the accumulations of most things in life showed up all of a sudden, we would be much less likely to welcome them with open arms.
Why do we live in such an emotionally sick world? Why is Family/relationship health not a common topic of discussion? Why is only Physical illness and/or injuries taken seriously and emotional health not? Why do we not have a standard of emotional/mental/spiritual health like we do Physical illness? Why do we worship mentally ill, elite, 1% ers who destroy our only planet for $ and assist them in doing so? Why are we not even able to recognize when our emotional state is out of alignment and, instead, get offended when it gets pointed out to us?
We get so out of alignment emotionally over time that we continue using our misaligned perceptions to make ourselves even more misaligned. If we lived in a, Health as Priority, world it would be much more natural and an immediate response for others to let the out-of-alignment person know they're out of alignment. We would be much more connected to ourselves and real wealth, that our response time would be split second. Because we have been so conditioned by $ that has drifted so far off course and we are still following it even though it is a system that has been taken over by a drunk driver.
I think of my favorite line from the movie JAWS, "Why don't we start leading the shark back to shore instead of him leading us out to sea?" We have been allowing ourselves to get lead "out to sea" and further away from shore and our health where we will end up with NO leverage eventually.
The fact that we have to ignore that our body has been injured due to lack of health insurance or what have you, is a sure sign that our society and $$ are the opposite of one another.
Today my brother said what I've heard him say many times before about how we grew up, that it "wasn't that bad." I think of it as, not about being "not that bad" or not but, more about being Oriented in life. Calling something what it is is what makes us oriented and knowing where we are and what direction we need to be moving in. We want things in life to be Healthy, we want optimum, or we should. Having domestic violence and divorce early growing up is unhealthy. If we say it's "not that bad" it's because we're using our young, naive mind, the mind that the adults around us need to be strengthening and teaching, and instead we're going into debt because the very people who we need to be making deposits in our direction are incapable. We have no choice but to see things as "not that bad" because we are forced to put ourselves into "debt" to move more towards bailing them out. It's a form of AMS, Altered Mental Status, the same as the body going into shock.
That's the whole point, if we're forced to decide with our immature mind that "not that bad" is going to be acceptable in our life when family should be the very people teaching us to accept nothing less than quality and being treated good in life, then we're like a body being taught that bleeding out is correct. The body can teach us a lot about health and having standards if we paid closer attention to it. The body definitely would not be telling that "not that Bad" is something we want to accept. The body would Never accept "not that bad". The body wants to live and be as happy and healthy as possible. Because most of us don't know that as a possibility we accept the crap the system/parents teach us to accept so the PTB can screw the shit out of us.
Setting emotions aside, north is north, south is south, west if west and east is east. A spinal cord injury is a spinal cord injury and a broken family is a broken family. We have to call shit what it is if we are to know where we are in time and space. In Yoga we call it Proprioception. If we don't call something what it is we will be lost and disoriented and have NO idea where the F we are going. We can call it what we want to if it makes us more "comfortable" but the reality will always be what it is.
Paying attention to our bodies signals and trusting that what our bodies are trying to tell us is real and that NOTHING should take us away from that and if it does, say Good bye to it! NOTHING should come before what our body, gut feels. NOTHING. Not even Fake man Made $$. We need to strengthen our connection to what our body is telling us or, like any other relationship, it will atrophy over time. We must work out our connection to our bodies and follow it's directions.
My brother is finding that out now, but just because most of us do not have a SC injury does not mean the connection we have to ourselves is as sharp as it can be.
I believe it's imperative to strengthen the connection we have to ourselves, especially if we came from a broken/abusive or dysfunctional family. Even if we think we came from a Great family, we should probably connect even more! Because, the fact is, this society wants to break the family down so it can have it's way with us. Just like the instability in my brothers neck due to the fracture, the family system can be unstable and end up making us less fit than we otherwise could be.
I feel like I've been rehabilitating myself all my life from my unstable upbringing while watching my brother now relearning to do basic functions again. I always felt I was compromised growing up and taught to accept less than a healthy environment so I was always exercising in body and mind to make myself stronger. The system is designed to keep us struggling and in debt on some level. It was very difficult because I never had the support or the acknowledgement from others about the family condition that a spinal cord injury gets. Too many people around were in denial and lower their standards. The Bottom line, We're NOT using ALL of our Functions!!
The fact is, is that the family system IS like a muscle group interacting in either fit and sharp ways or not. We can always be more fit in the way we relate. As long as we use our acceptance of "not that bad" we will keep ourselves in much lower standards that we deserve. Remember, it's the Gradual loss of things over time that is harder to notice. We need to check in and make sure we're exercising hard to hold onto what we have and add to it.
Seeing my brother and how his body is having a very difficult time communicating with itself and relating the way it used to reminds me of the way many people/families relate to one another with the interactions being less than optimum. There are many different levels of dysfunction and the problem comes when people begin defending and making excuses for their dysfunction. Of course it would be entirely ridiculous if my brother collapsed, unable to get up, was wheeled into the emergency room and was in complete denial of his injuries. Unless, of course, he had some injury to his brain also. His physical injuries are pretty blatant and unmistakable. He would not be offended when the doctor comes over to him and says, "you, sir, have a spinal cord injury". The fact that many people live Not at their full capacity already, yet, try to say to someone, "you are living at a less-than fully functioning level" and you would get all kinds of excuses and denial. WHY? My Favorite quote by James Madison again,, that's why! Because the slow and gradual is more dangerous than the sudden and the violent. Things that happen to us more gradually over time are much harder to see and slowly become more accepted as a part of us. If the accumulations of most things in life showed up all of a sudden, we would be much less likely to welcome them with open arms.
Why do we live in such an emotionally sick world? Why is Family/relationship health not a common topic of discussion? Why is only Physical illness and/or injuries taken seriously and emotional health not? Why do we not have a standard of emotional/mental/spiritual health like we do Physical illness? Why do we worship mentally ill, elite, 1% ers who destroy our only planet for $ and assist them in doing so? Why are we not even able to recognize when our emotional state is out of alignment and, instead, get offended when it gets pointed out to us?
We get so out of alignment emotionally over time that we continue using our misaligned perceptions to make ourselves even more misaligned. If we lived in a, Health as Priority, world it would be much more natural and an immediate response for others to let the out-of-alignment person know they're out of alignment. We would be much more connected to ourselves and real wealth, that our response time would be split second. Because we have been so conditioned by $ that has drifted so far off course and we are still following it even though it is a system that has been taken over by a drunk driver.
I think of my favorite line from the movie JAWS, "Why don't we start leading the shark back to shore instead of him leading us out to sea?" We have been allowing ourselves to get lead "out to sea" and further away from shore and our health where we will end up with NO leverage eventually.
The fact that we have to ignore that our body has been injured due to lack of health insurance or what have you, is a sure sign that our society and $$ are the opposite of one another.
Today my brother said what I've heard him say many times before about how we grew up, that it "wasn't that bad." I think of it as, not about being "not that bad" or not but, more about being Oriented in life. Calling something what it is is what makes us oriented and knowing where we are and what direction we need to be moving in. We want things in life to be Healthy, we want optimum, or we should. Having domestic violence and divorce early growing up is unhealthy. If we say it's "not that bad" it's because we're using our young, naive mind, the mind that the adults around us need to be strengthening and teaching, and instead we're going into debt because the very people who we need to be making deposits in our direction are incapable. We have no choice but to see things as "not that bad" because we are forced to put ourselves into "debt" to move more towards bailing them out. It's a form of AMS, Altered Mental Status, the same as the body going into shock.
That's the whole point, if we're forced to decide with our immature mind that "not that bad" is going to be acceptable in our life when family should be the very people teaching us to accept nothing less than quality and being treated good in life, then we're like a body being taught that bleeding out is correct. The body can teach us a lot about health and having standards if we paid closer attention to it. The body definitely would not be telling that "not that Bad" is something we want to accept. The body would Never accept "not that bad". The body wants to live and be as happy and healthy as possible. Because most of us don't know that as a possibility we accept the crap the system/parents teach us to accept so the PTB can screw the shit out of us.
Setting emotions aside, north is north, south is south, west if west and east is east. A spinal cord injury is a spinal cord injury and a broken family is a broken family. We have to call shit what it is if we are to know where we are in time and space. In Yoga we call it Proprioception. If we don't call something what it is we will be lost and disoriented and have NO idea where the F we are going. We can call it what we want to if it makes us more "comfortable" but the reality will always be what it is.
Paying attention to our bodies signals and trusting that what our bodies are trying to tell us is real and that NOTHING should take us away from that and if it does, say Good bye to it! NOTHING should come before what our body, gut feels. NOTHING. Not even Fake man Made $$. We need to strengthen our connection to what our body is telling us or, like any other relationship, it will atrophy over time. We must work out our connection to our bodies and follow it's directions.
My brother is finding that out now, but just because most of us do not have a SC injury does not mean the connection we have to ourselves is as sharp as it can be.
I believe it's imperative to strengthen the connection we have to ourselves, especially if we came from a broken/abusive or dysfunctional family. Even if we think we came from a Great family, we should probably connect even more! Because, the fact is, this society wants to break the family down so it can have it's way with us. Just like the instability in my brothers neck due to the fracture, the family system can be unstable and end up making us less fit than we otherwise could be.
I feel like I've been rehabilitating myself all my life from my unstable upbringing while watching my brother now relearning to do basic functions again. I always felt I was compromised growing up and taught to accept less than a healthy environment so I was always exercising in body and mind to make myself stronger. The system is designed to keep us struggling and in debt on some level. It was very difficult because I never had the support or the acknowledgement from others about the family condition that a spinal cord injury gets. Too many people around were in denial and lower their standards. The Bottom line, We're NOT using ALL of our Functions!!
The fact is, is that the family system IS like a muscle group interacting in either fit and sharp ways or not. We can always be more fit in the way we relate. As long as we use our acceptance of "not that bad" we will keep ourselves in much lower standards that we deserve. Remember, it's the Gradual loss of things over time that is harder to notice. We need to check in and make sure we're exercising hard to hold onto what we have and add to it.
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